As always with this neglected blog, I seem to be surprised every time I pick up writing on it again for whatever random reason it may be. Don’t get me wrong, I love writing, always have always will, but I should know by now that my day to day (more like month to month) schedule does not exactly allow me to type on this keyboard the way I’d really want to. But that’s more my fault really. The real reason I’m writing isn’t to give some unnecessary update on my life.
There’s something of a theme going on in my heart that the Lord has been in with me for the past couple of months or so, and more and more do I feel the need to share what I’ve been observing and being shown about the generation we live in today. And how more and more I don’t want to be a part of it.
Now, before I get into this, I just wanna say that in no way shape or form am I approaching this from a “holier than thou” mentality. That is like the opposite of how I am approaching all that He is teaching me. As humans, we naturally have questions and observations and debatable proposals in regards to many different topics under the sun. So when reading this, just approach with an open mind..
Going on to the topic of church. Church like the building. Church as in what you might go to on Sundays. Not the Body of Christ :
The other day, I was reflecting on worship and different types of worship within churches. And of course, my heart is opened to a viewpoint (maybe it was God’s viewpoint) on how we approach worship in church today.
I wonder who it was in the modern era that scheduled the messages to be the last thing on the church service itinerary. Was it always like that for hundreds of generations? Or is this more of a modern thing? I know not every Christian church is like this, but let’s be honest, most are. Now here comes another question: Whenever worship is done, time is up and everyone has to move on to the next thing on the list…do you ever feel robbed? Especially if God was really touching your soul during worship?
I think we might have things backwards…
I feel like I’m already all over the place for some reason but stay with me here…. So, during my thinking, I suddenly felt angered in a way. I thought, “Wow. Who do we think we are, putting Holy Spirit on a schedule (our schedule), and expect there to be real movement among the people because we think things went according to plan?”… ???????????
The schedule went on time, worship was satisfactory with no mistakes, no one fell asleep, good stuff praise Jesus!
Yes, the message is important, announcements are important, the bloody 30 second handshakes and shallow hellos for everyone are important (sorry not sorry my introverted self didn’t mean to sound bitter). All these things are pretty damn important but… why can’t we save the best for last? Why can’t we let the Spirit move and work within us during worship for as long as He sees fit?? Why must we box Him in like we do? Lol I almost want to not go to church anymore cuz of this, however it’s honestly something I can just suck up and take. I mean no one is gonna stop me if I know the Spirit and I need more worship time and I leave the sanctuary to find a more private spot in the building so that I can be fully engrossed in His heart for that morning and know how He wants me to proceed for my sake and others.
My God, we have boxed Him in.
Honestly, the more I yearn to know Him and the more He shows me, the more I realize just how much He wants us to let go. For us to let go of our comfort, of our doubts, of our repetitiveness/our routines. He wants us to let go so that we can hand over to Him anything that holds us down and slows us from pursuing what’s on His heart.
Are we willing to disappoint those who may not understand what God is asking us to do for Him? Whether they may be a believer or not?
Are we willing to let Him out of the cage we have created for Him? We’ve lost the intricate keys to the cage a long time ago, but He knows where they are, and He’ll show you where and how to use them. For He is both wise and gracious. He wants to be free in our hearts. Can you imagine how much more He will do in our lives and in the lives around us if we allow Him to be fully Himself?!! Because He will not force Himself on us, it is not in His character.
Be radical (not an extremist of course). Be rebellious toward anything that would hinder His will. Just as Jesus overturned the tables of the sellers in His Father’s temple, don’t tolerate anything that would misrepresent Him.
Far too long have we given the world a distorted picture of our one true King. Our free and loving and righteous King.